retrace my steps, as if i forgot.

Well im well aware that only hours have passed, but I just can't stop thinking about every little thinkng in my head. (oh biggie the kitty just showed up and sat next to me, I love hims. itty bitty the kitty is on the couch watching me type). Speaking of my cats, I was talking to my husband last night, and he was like ... "How in the world could you think that you wouldn't be a good mom. You treat our cats like they are real children". Indeed I do. They are living creatures and living creatures need everything as well as ourselves. So as i thought about this, I was well aware that I could overcome this feeling that I could not do this. Because I KNOW I CAN! I'm just hoping I can change what I was taught. I want to make a difference with my child. I refuse to let my child live like I had to growing up!! So I will change the future. I have to say out of everything that has happened to me, I turned out well. (unless you count that maybe I should probably talk to a professonal about my past). As I go onto the age of 28, I am still being treated the same I was when I was a little kid. But I still always ending up apologizing for something I have never done, just because they are my family. I know deep down they don't care and I honestly shouldn't either, but I always end up going back because they are my family. I know I'm not the only person that has the same problem as I do. Life is hard. I just want to make a change before my child comes into this world of dysfunction. I will make a difference!